Today I spent a lot of time on Pinterest looking at hair style ideas. This is mostly because I want to practice getting better at doing braids, especially French braids. The funny thing is, I can do all these super cute waterfall braids, but I can’t do a simple regular old French braid. And if I can’t do that, there’s all sorts of cool stuff I can’t do. Part of the reason I grew my hair long was so I could do this stuff! Argh! Plus it’s nearly impossible to do all of this stuff to yourself. I guess I’ll have to resign myself to teaching other people, or practice so much that I can do it all without looking. I have found, actually, that the best way to practice is by not looking in the mirror. It always ends up looking better when you can think about what your hands are doing instead of what it looks like.
Here are some of my experiments.
Super simple waterfall twist. I will be using this all the time – and it turned out this nice on the first try!
Another waterfall braid, only this one wrapped all the way around my head, ending in a side braid.
Major props to The Beauty Department
for the amazing braid ideas.
After that I decided that I should really give into this pampering experiment mood and give myself a facial.
BF’s mom sent me this really amazing lavender facial kit. It smells great and I have been meaning to do it and take my time with it for a long time. I got it weeks ago, but there never seemed to be the time to actually relax and enjoy it. I was always so stressed out than any attempt to make time to destress would have created more stress. But not anymore! The insanity of the first three weeks is over, and now the second three weeks is going much more smoothly. So I pinned my hair up on top of my head and got down to business. I stripped off all of my make-up – which today was only mascara. I got the water running in the sink nice and hot, and whipped out my facial kit.
I thought it seems a little sad to be giving myself a facial on a Friday night. Then I realized that I can take my time off however I want. I love being social, but I’ve never been a partier. I don’t feel the need to go out and get wild in my free time. In my free time, I want to play board games and watch movies and make jokes, and have good conversations with people I like, and I don’t want to be doing it yelling over loud music. I like to talk, and I like to listen. If some beer or a few bottles of wine are involved, that’s great, but…let’s stay in.
So here I am, Friday night facial.
This comes from a really amazing place called Olivu 426. They have a store where BF and family are, but otherwise you can order online. I really really recommend the Avocado Oil that is the first step of this facial. It feels AMAZING – you wipe it off with a hot wash rag and I swear I could feel it opening my pores. My skin felt like it was breathing. Then I combined the lavender, oatmeal, and buttermilk powder with the shea face wash. It was crazy thick and creamy, so I left it on my face for a bit, soaking in.
Oh yeah, me all done up on my Friday night.
So then I spent a lot of time just wiping it all off, soaking my skin.
Here’s the rub: I love make-up. I love playing with it and experimenting with it. I love looking at other people and imagining in my head what I would do to them if they would let me. Or I look at them and think that they are trying too hard, or overdoing it, and it is so easy to overdo it with make-up. Make-up is not supposed to change your face, it’s supposed to accent the good things. For example, I know the color of my eyes is unusual – I also know that because of this I can pull off almost any color eyeshadow. On the other hand, eyeliner is not always a great look for me. Still, I love make-up.
But once I wiped the goo off my face, I really looked at my skin. My skin is not great, especially that on my nose. The heat of the summer always makes me break out. However, I wonder if the world would be better if we all went around looking like this all the time.
No make up, no caffeine, no nothing.
I have bags under my eyes, I am splotchy. My skin is tight because I forget to moisturize a lot. But I feel clean and fresh, and I wonder if I would feel like that more often if I didn’t wear make-up. One of the other interns, Tia, doesn’t wear any make-up at all. It probably helps that she is a black woman with beautiful skin (also, I’m in deep envy of her fingernails), but she prefers people that way. Unadorned, nothing on you.
I worry about how many people in the world hide behind make-up. I don’t think I ever have – I think I’ve always been so low maintenance that it was really more about enjoying the way I looked, rather than “fixing” something or “hiding” something. I like wearing mascara because I have really long eyelashes. I like wearing lip gloss because I have big lips…however, I know that lipstick is not a good choice for me because my top lip is awkwardly shaped and lipstick points that out. I like to do crazy colors on my eyelids, and I love glitter on my face way more than I should.
But there are some people who think they need to put on layers of make-up to hide bad skin, when the make-up only makes it worse. People who won’t leave the house without putting on full eye stuff. There are all those criticisms on the internet about girls who come to school in sweatpants but still have their hair and make up done – I don’t want to criticize those girls, I pity them, I fear for them. I fear that they think if they spend one day undone it will ruin them forever. I fear that it is so a part of their routine that they do not know how to deviate from it. That they wear that mask forever, and are never really themselves. I had a teacher in high school who wore lipstick every single day. One day, she didn’t. I said something to her – I said she looked different without it, and I thought she looked really pretty. She, on the other hand, was nervous about. She genuinely felt naked without her lipstick. I saw her a few hours later and she must have found some, because the armor of it was back on her face.
I hate that the world makes us believe that. Make-up and girly things and our hairstyles and all of that should not be about other people, it should be about ourselves. I do what I think is pretty, not what someone else does. Do I like it when BF likes how I look or what I do? Of course. But will I change my whole life around it? No. I’ve been in that relationship, never doing that again. Sometimes people can’t see past the layer of make-up to the person, and they never get to know them. I’ll admit it – I judge people who fake tan. For the most part make-up I can ignore, but honestly, fake tanning creeps me out.
I dunno. I’m thinking about maybe trying 30 days with no make-up, and see what happens. See how I feel. Make sure that I’m wearing it because I want to and not because I feel like I have to, because society tells me I do.
Whatever, we’re all better off naked.